Journal of a 40-something year old wife, mother and chicpreneur.

Title:                    Younger
Author:                Pamela Redmond Satran
Format:               Audiobook
Duration:             6 hours and 48 mins

Sometime back, my husband introduced me to a TV series called Younger, a program he was certain I would love. My husband knows me too well. I was hooked from the first episode of the first series and binge-watched the first two seasons back to back. The finale for the third season had just ended last week and I am looking forward to watch the fourth season in 2017.

Anyway, I didn’t realize until about a couple of weeks ago that the TV series was based on a book of the same title written by Pamela Redmond Satran. I was browsing Audible and stumbled on the book and realized it was the same as the series. I don’t usually bother to read books when I’ve seen the screen version already but I decided to purchase the book anyway for fun.

While the premise for the book and the series were the same, there are of course some big differences in terms of characters from book to screen.

The book is about 44 year old Alice, who had recently gone through a divorce and was finding trouble to look for a job. In desperate need to make a change in her life, her best friend Maggie helped transform her looks through a make-over. Thanks to the make-over Alice now can pass off as a younger girl and she managed to secure not only a job but also a younger boyfriend.

I’ll start first with the differences between book and screen:

First, the book character is called Alice and the screen version is Liza.

Secondly, Josh is a 25 year old game designer who had just broken up with his fiancée. In the book, he is just getting ready to head to Japan to learn more about game design. Whilst the Josh from the tv series is a well known tattoo artist who owns his own tattoo studio or ‘parlor’ as Liza had called it the first time she met him at a bar in the first series.

Thirdly, there are more characters in the show than in the book. Which makes sense cause a TV series would allow you to expand the characters and the storylines better than a book of only 300 over pages. Plus, the Diana in the book is a mother of three whilst the Diana on screen is a single lady in her 40’s still in search of love. I much prefer the Diana on screen that the bitchy bossy Diana version from the book.

Younger is a short book, only six hours of listening in audiobook format and about 300 plus pages in the paper format. I finished listening to it within two days. It’s a light and easy read. Unfortunately, I did not enjoy the book as much as I do the TV series. I find Alice’s character in the book to be shallow and annoying and much prefer Liza in the TV series. I gave it a two-star rating in Goodreads.

Rogue One was not a movie that I expected.

A few days ago, I went into the cinema expecting to be entertained with the classic styled Star Wars movie that I have grown to love. Rebels fighting for a cause with Jedis showing their skills with maybe a few awesome lightsaber fighting scenes and my most favorite part of all for Star Wars is the light banter that happens between the characters that made the movie so much fun to watch.

Rogue One is different. It’s much darker and more serious in its story-telling style.

I struggled to enjoy the first half of the movie. Waiting for the film to fulfill my expectations. I can’t help but felt a slight disappointment. BUT, the final act of the movie was when the action began. AND, I have to say the unexpected ending made such an impact that it made up what I felt was lacking the traditional Star Wars feel in the first half of the movie.

I really had mixed feelings about the movie when I exited the cinema but I saw it for the second time today and I’ve come to appreciate the movie more. Rogue One is a stand-alone movie from the Star Wars franchise and has its own style.

Once I accepted that fact, I realized that it is a great movie.

Fun fact: It’s the only Star Wars movie that did not feature the original music score.

Favorite character: The blind warrior monk, Chirrut Imwe; played by Donnie Yen.

Favorite scenes: Darth Vader being a badass killer in the only lightsaber scene and of course the surprising ending.



I am a bit worried about my general health. Since I hit my forties, there have been drastic changes happening to my body. It’s been especially obvious since I gave birth to our baby girl in October this year. If my body is feeling rusty now, I can’t imagine how I would feel when I hit my 50’s.

There are a couple of things that I need to concentrate and recover from:

Upper back pain
For almost two years, I’ve had a consistent pain on my left shoulder blade. It’s been getting worst after I gave birth. Possibly because I carry the baby mostly with my left arm. It gets really bad that sometimes it gives me headaches. I’ve tried physiotherapy in the past but not consistently. I think I may need to go back for treatment and stick to the exercises more consistently this time.

Bone and Joint pains
This is going to make me sound VERY, VERY OLD but my knees makes crackling sounds when I walk up the stairs. It’s terrible and it started after I gave birth.

Another thing that I’ve noticed is that my bones ache when I wake up in the morning. The first steps I take getting up from the bed, is really painful. I’m literally walking like an old woman because my feet ache. I reckon this is due to lack of calcium and also exercise. I’m not sure if taking extra doses of calcium would help.

Slow recovery post delivery
When I gave birth to my second son four years ago. I was able to get back to my pre-pregnancy size within a few weeks. NOW however, I still have my baby weight and my flabby tummy looks really really bad.

My husband took a candid picture of me last week and I was pretty shocked to see my flabs sticking out everywhere. I mean I was a bit flabby after giving birth to my first son but this time around the flabbiness looks really bad. I might not be able to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight but I’d really like a toned body. A flabby figure is not what I want to live with.

During my pregnancy, I was also suffering from dry, flaky skin. Unfortunately, the dryness has not recovered post-maternity especially on my face AND… I HAVE ACNE! AT 41! ACNE! Can you believe it? If there was one thing I loved about leaving my teens, it was the fact that I didn’t have to deal with zits anymore.. but then this happens. Sigh.

General Health
I can’t climb ten steps of stairs without panting. Enough said.

So, this is my plan of action:
1. Consult a medical practitioner on what I should do for my back-aches, joint pains and brittle bones.
2. Research and find the right exercises suitable for people in their 40’s that I can do to help me lose weight and improve my general health.

I will be using this blog as my journal to chronicle my journey to fitness. I intend to make 2017 the year for me to start taking better care of myself and become a healthier person.

I’ve just watched back to back episodes of Younger’s season 3 finale. If you haven’t watched the final episode then be warned, there are spoilers ahead.

Breaking down the key events in the double episode ending:

  • Liza and Charles kissed
  • Josh sees them kissing which ruins the marriage proposal he had planned
  • Liza tells Kelsey the truth about her age

Point number 1: Liza and Charles
Oooooo Liza. Liza. Liza. How could you?

I know it’s tempting with Berlin singing ‘Take my breath away’ and all but still….

Anyway, I do think that Charles has more in common with Liza than Josh does but that makes it such a boring relationship if they were together. I doubt they’d last long if they did end up together. I love Charles but I’m not a fan of Liza and Charles together. I do have to give him credit for his excellent taste in music, I mean who doesn’t love Berlin!

Point number 2: Liza and Josh
If you can’t tell yet, I’m a BIG #teamjosh supporter. The guy is patient and has put up with so many of Liza’s issues. If that’s not enough proof that he loves her, I don’t know what is. I really do feel sorry for the guy though. Walking in on his girlfriend kissing her boss on the night he planned to propose to her, that’s a big smack to the face.

I’m heart broken with the way the relationship ended. I really love Josh and Liza together and hope that there is still a chance that they’d get back together again in the next season; though I don’t know how Josh is going to look pass all of Liza’s screw up.

Photo: Worn On TV

Point number 3: Liza and Kelsey
Honestly, I don’t know how Liza managed to keep the lie that she is a 40 year old posing as a 26 year old for so long from Kelsey. Anyway, I’m so glad she finally told Kelsey the truth albeit for the wrong reasons; maybe to make herself feel better and come clean to Kelsey after Josh had called her a liar.

I guess we’ll just have to wait for the next season to see how Kelsey reacts.

Before I end this post, can I just say that I absolutely love, love, lovE, loVE, lOVE,LOVE Sutton Foster in the white conrad dress by Ronald Mouret in this episode. The dress looks so beautiful on her and really shows off her endless legs.

Now… what to watch next to occupy my time until season 4 returns…

I started blogging maybe about ten years ago. My first blog was a book review blog called Ulat Buku in the City; obviously inspired by my favourite show then, Sex and the City. Yup, that’s how creative I am with blog names.

Anyway for those who don’t know, Ulat buku in my native language means book worm. When I blogged at Ulat Buku in the City, I blogged for fun and enjoyed socializing with the blogging community discussing the latest book launches and reviews.

After I got married, I still blogged but not consistently. Then when I had kids, I kinda stopped writing and blogging all together. I tried to go back to my blog a couple of times but somehow I felt that I outgrew the blog, specifically the topics I covered. I wanted to write about so many other things plus I was no longer a single girl living in the city, so the name Ulat Buku in the City felt like a misrepresentation of who I was. I started a couple of other new blogs after that but it all died after a few posts.

In the past couple of years, I have been thinking about what to blog about. I kinda wasted time on the thinking and planning that I never got around to the actual writing and blogging.

I just love to write. 

I do. I love to write and blog. It really is my hobby. And in the years that I did not write and blog, I missed it. I missed the process of creating a blog, making friends and communicating with other like-minded bloggers. So I’ve decided, I’m just going to start writing and blogging. No more thinking and planning. I will commit to writing and blogging at least two posts a week in 2017.

My strategy to keep this blog alive is just to write, blog, connect with other blogger and then repeat.

Why 40 and Above?

Well, I’m currently 41 years old and am going through a lot of changes in my life. So I thought why not share what life in the 40’s is like from my perspective. This blog will cover my personal interest; from books to family to food and fashion (or lack thereof).

I have so many things to share about life in my 40’s and I think it’s enough to keep this blog running for a long time.

Our little princess is almost three months old. Time really does fly by. I feel like it was just yesterday that my husband was rushing me to the hospital to give birth to her.

Not even three months old and she’s already smiling when she sees me and hears my voice. I love babies at this age. They’re so small, so innocent and so pure. My favourite moment is bonding with the baby during breastfeeding. There’s just this magical feeling when you hold them in your arms and they look you straight in the eye while they nurse. I love it.

Like I said, time passes by so fast. I hope I’ll remember this moment forever.

Don’t grow up too fast baby girl.


I thought it was apt that my first post for this blog be a quick review of what I’ve achieved in 2016.

This will obviously be a short post.

In late 2015, I decided to break the bank, quit a job I loved and take a break from my career to spend time at home with my family and pursue my personal interests. I’m very blessed to be able to take time off from work.

This past year, I completely took my career hat off and became a full-time mom. I spent quality time with the family especially the kids; I was there for them when they needed me without worrying about work responsibilities and that felt really great. I did activities with the kids that I wasn’t able to do much off when I was juggling a career; simple things like – playing with the kids, reading to them, catching a movie with them – like I said simple activities that has become precious moments for me.

On a personal level, I have to admit that I have wasted my year off. I had a list of things I wanted to do: explore business ideas, exercise, read books, start a blog – literally had 10,000 things on my to do list for the year. I did none of them.

The only thing I did however, was binge-watch TV shows. I caught up with old and new TV series that I never had a chance watching when I was working. So, I guess on a personal level I achieved being a successful couch potato with the ability of binge watching a whole season of a TV series within two days tops. Woohoo! Pat on my back.

So, I asked myself:

Could I have done more and striked-off some of my 2016 to-do list?
Exactly, what did I achieve this year?
Am I disappointed with my achievements this year?

The answer:

Well, of course I could have done more to achieve the personal goals I had set out for myself in early 2016.

So, what have I achieved this year?
Reviewing the past year, I believe my achievement is more focused on relationships. I feel that I have spent quality time building relationships and memories with the people that matters to me the most; my family.

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